hi loubie thinking about you all the time things keep coming back iv just remembered when i called ambulance not that i have forgot but its like my memory has blocked it out it hurts it makes me so sad i hate been awake im sorry for saying this to you but i cant cope i just want you back im so sorry baby girl i love you so much it hurts it really really hurts alot im so sorry i love you loubie i love you so much xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx ibjust wish id have known xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx