Hi sweet heart this keeps freezing and I cant get onto leave U a message im sorry I hope U dont think im just ignoring you its so frustrating. Well iv been Christmas shopping looking at all the toys I should be buying you but cant I just wish U were here loubie I miss you so much this numbness has kicked in big time or R U staying so close that i feel U with me its so strange. I hope ubr close to me and Erica and Emma and the bump if I could do anything if donit to have you here I love you Loubie Emma said uv been to see he in her dreams I wish I could see U and feel U and hold U and kiss you and smell U x x I would do anything for you to be here please stay close to mummy x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x xx x x x x x x x x x x